Reminiscing

The music playing in the background is the Adagio movement in E-flat [1] of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart's Serenade in B-flat major, KV 361/370a, the "Gran Partita " conducted by Sir Neville Marriner. [2]  It seems to compliment the mood of this entry.

The setting is a place some distance away from the noises of daily life where one can be in solitude for some time to allow the mind to imagine oneself living in the time of Christ, not so much as a witness to Christ's ministry but more as an observer of a man Whom one had had a chance to know and love.

On a rock, on a slope, one sits gazing into the distance with a blank mind in the stillness of silence and emptiness of heart and wonders what will come next, with Christ gone in the seemingly endless hours after He took His last breath on the Cross.  Sadness fills the entire being, not knowing what to do or where to turn.  The heart aches terribly, and from time to time the eyes well-up with tears as one's thoughts travel back to the times when Christ showed His kindness to those who simply lived, without regard to their handicaps, faults or social status, His compassion to the many who came to see and hear Him, who walked on the grounds He walked on, His (unrecorded) happiness to those closest to Him by His infectious laughter.

Christ was a man Who lived only to love, and Who loved without judgment or hesitation, Who hurt deeply when people did not like Him and did not believe in Him and who wanted Him dead.  In spite of all the rejection and the torture, He had no interest in vengeance; He accepted the ways that He was being mistreated, humbly and silently.  At the mercy of man, in the face of pain, He stood, resolute and without accusation, as He bled from His Sacred Heart the blood that gives eternal life to anyone willing to accept Him, the lowly lamb of God.

In describing the Adagio movement in E-flat [1] of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart's Serenade in B-flat major, KV 361/370a, Antonio Salieri said (in the movie Amadeus), "'On the page it looked nothing. The beginning simple, almost comic. Just a pulse. Bassoons and basset horns, like a rusty squeezebox. And then suddenly, high above it, an oboe. A single note, hanging there, unwavering. Until a clarinet took over and sweetened it into a phrase of such delight! This was no composition by a performing monkey! This was a music I'd never heard. Filled with such longing, such unfulfillable longing, it had me trembling. It seemed to me that I was hearing the voice of God.'" [3]

So was Christ the voice of God and He continues to fill those who love Him with (in the words of Salieri in the movie Amadeus) "such longing, such unfulfillable longing," for Christ is like the "single note, hanging there, unwavering," until love from the whole of humanity rushes to join Him, "and sweeten it into [an eternity] of [ineffable] delight."

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Serenade_No._10_Mozart
[2] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BWn1KuXGVM
[3] Comment written by Tr0n3000 at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5q2-VHiUDZs quoting Antonio Salieri from the movie Amadeus. Watch it on YouTube at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvrxPs47yMc